orangeeeee!!!!!

2010-04-19T17:40:00.001+08:00

taking a break to tumblr for a while.

2010-04-08T21:58:00.003+08:00

i really haven't blogged in REALLY long!!! like 1 month plussss! AND I HAVEN'T VISITED MY BLOG IN REALLY LONG EITHER! so i just realised that Han tagged! SO ANYWAY THANKS HAN FOR THE ENCOURAGING TAGGGG! things are fine nowww :DDDD

So anyway, school's getting quite tiresome, especially with the crazy humid climate of Singapore. I'm lost on what homework I have, what is due tomorrow, what is due on monday and what is due in the next millennium. OH WELL. At least I managed to get wifi in school so now i'm facebook-ing more often! (that's a good thing right) :DDD

2010-03-05T23:01:00.002+08:00

i know i haven't posted in really longgg... have been busy with jc stuff..

anyway i really don't understand what i did wrong. i took time off to come down and help and all i get is accusatory tones disbelieving what i say... i'm only saying what i heard is there anything wrong with that? what would i gain if i lie? if you don't want me back just tell me straight in my face, don't offer me the alternative long route insincerely. it's really crappy. i go back for them not to see you all but when i see you all i just get very upset and regret going in the first place. that's why i don't think i want to go back again, not alone at least. but i think even if there were other people, i wouldn't want to cause even when i offer my help not only do i get turned down, i get snubbed. why should i have to take this.

2010-01-27T08:38:00.000+08:00

PISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSEDPISSED

2010-01-18T18:27:00.001+08:00

i think i'm addicted to my mum's chicken curry. DIEEEEE.

2010-01-14T11:52:00.002+08:00

there's this reallyreally weird buzzing noise coming from outside my kitchen window and it's annoying meeee. pesky thingg. anyway I think i'm gonna submit my JAE thingy soon. oh yah Iforgot to blog that I already received my O level results. I would say that it's average, but I know I wouldn't have been able to do this well without God's grace. So I hope now God will guide my choices for JAE and hope I get into my first choice of school! *PRAYYYY* :DD

2010-01-03T02:16:00.001+08:00

HEY EVERYONE WHO ACTUALLY READS MY BLOG! :DD HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2010 is here and i think 2009 went by REALLY FAST! so anyway i hope everyone has loads of happy moments and memories this coming year! :DD

2009-12-25T02:29:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO HAVE TIME TO READ MY SPASMODICALLY-UPDATED BLOGG! :D CHRISTMAS PAGEANT WAS OK I GUESSS :DDD AND NOW I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEW YEAR! XD HAHAHAHAHA CNYYY! :DDD

2009-12-21T21:34:00.002+08:00

OH GOSH I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN A WEEK! =X OOOOOPPPSS!! so anyway things haven't been busy, what with choir concert on Thursday, Friday and Saturday then having rehearsals from church christmas pageant! :DD CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! :DD but somehow i don't feel the christmas season in the airrr... DD: OH WELL! THE HOLIDAYS HAVE REALLY FLOWN BY SUPERRRRR FAST! it's like reaching the END OF DECEMBER already! and 2010 is just around the corner! 2010 = O LEVEL RESULTS. :S DIEEEEE. But i don't want to think about that now! i'm having too much fun playing with my daddy OLDDDDD camera :DDDDD

2009-12-14T23:52:00.002+08:00

i promised to make an effort to blog everyday, so here goes... Went for christmas pageant rehearsal today it was ok i guess... i wanted to get my new phone today! but the stock didn't come in DDD: i guess i didn't do much else today.. still quite sick though.. coughing quite badly :S OH WELL! i'll get better sooon :DDD

2009-12-13T21:59:00.001+08:00

i spent the whole day sleeping todayyy... like i came back after church, popped 2 flu panadols then SLEPT. GAAAHHHH super sick luh.. this is ANNOYING!!! and choir concert's this week.. HOW TO SING LIKE THAT! coughing like shit and my nose is damn runnyyyyy DDDD:

2009-12-13T00:26:00.002+08:00

ok sewing class yesterday was fine, but on impulse, i went to cut my hair and now it's SCREWED. it's like really damn short.

So today i went for choir and then met up with my familt and we watched a christmas carol. The 3-D effects are really cool and funnn! :DDD oh i'm sick. i've got quite a bad cough and my voice sounds like a guy's now.. it's really bad.. DDD: butbut i bought new shoes today! :DDDD

2009-12-11T14:15:00.002+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY GUILTY OF BLOG NEGLECT. =X so anyway these are the things that have happened recently:

1. O's ENDED! :DDDDD we went to ECP to cycle/blade after that (I TRIED TO LEARN TO BLADE! the vid is on FB! it's awesome-ly hilarious)

2. I WATCHED NEW MOON! (i think the ending is a letdown and jacob looks hotter than edward this time!)

3. I WENT FOR VIP 11/10! :DDDDDD (this was damn fun! ok tiring but FUN! learnt alot, experienced alot, made MANY new friends! :D)

I think that's about it so far.. can't really remember all the other things I've been doing, but from now on I shall try to blog FAITHFULLY! :DDDD i'm going for a sewing class now! :DDDD

2009-11-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

I AM STARTING TO FRET ABOUT MY CHINESE PAPER. omg i can't believe this. CHINESE right. once bitten twice shy luh... it's really gotten me damn scared...

i wonder if this will be a turning point in our lives but i'm sure things will be different

2009-10-31T00:24:00.001+08:00

O's are here... so far english, emath and amath down.. next week's gonna be a CRAZY week. :S

2009-09-25T23:36:00.001+08:00

the feeling of being unable to let go, of being unable to move on, of being able to end this misery in my heart.

2009-09-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

AT LAST PRELIMS ARE OVER! next is the big Os..DD: but that's at the back at my mind for now. WENT SHOPPING TODAY! with hillary and kristine to help hillary shop for her grad night dress and i really think that SHOPPING FOR HILLARY SHOULD BE MADE AN OFFICIAL OLYMPIC SPORT. we shopped for hillary's dress from 11 in the morning till 430 in the afternoon and we only managed to get the dress at 430. IT'S NUTS LUH. my back still hurts :S anyway i bought a new clutch! :DDDD it's brown and really pretty... i wanted to get my swiss army knife too but i think my mum would kill me... GAAAHHH but it's really pretty it like symbolises GIRL POWERRR. but with great "power" comes greatgreat responsibility.. (pocket knifes are dangerous- somewhat....)

2009-09-15T13:50:00.002+08:00

looking back at my life now, i've realised how much i've changed... how much everyone has changed. people i knew back then aren't the same anymore. i guess you can call it reminiscing.. but what if i didn't choose this path? sometimes i just wonder what would have happened. would i be a different person now? would i have met all the awesome people i have in my life now? i guess everything is God's plan after all and no matter how many what ifs, i'll never really know what would have happened.

2009-09-05T23:22:00.001+08:00

WENT FOR EDYD TODAYYYY! IT WAS AWESOMEEEE. ok i think my church's confirmants weren't really like SUPER enthu... i still remember me and my friends last year... omg AYD 08 was AWESOMEEEE-er XD i miss those times... DDD; REMINISCENCE

2009-09-01T18:28:00.001+08:00

i went to my room on the pretext of studying, but i ended up FALLING ASLEEP. shitballs. GAAAAHHHHH soooooo not gonna get any work done.. DD:

2009-09-01T10:56:00.001+08:00

i have 2 days to FINISH studying SS and Bio, though that sentence is grammatically incorrect because i have not even started. i don't think i'll actually be able to "finish" too. dead.

2009-08-31T00:35:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just disgust myself when i start "stalking" people. some people call it "bloghopping" lame excuse for being a stalker.

2009-08-24T19:00:00.002+08:00

I FEEL SO DEPRIVED OF A LIFEEEE. seriously. i know that technically, since it's my Os and such, i should be S-T-U-D-Y-I-N-G but i'm really starting to H-A-T-E that word. whoever coined that phrase must be a nutcase. Truth be told, i have not started on a SINGLE subject. at all. nada. zilch. zero. LING BIG FAT DAN. and the thing is, what's getting to me is not the fact that i haven't started studying, but that all my friends are studying and no one is free to GO OUT with me. there's seriously something wrong with me right. tell me about it. i'm convinced i'm psycho. i'm ANXIOUS, yes, but NOT for my Os. I cant wait for AFTER my Os. i think if my parents read this they'd either a) check me into IMH or b) kill me. i think they choose b) - cheaper option. i have somehow lost all motivation/drive (not saying i actually had any in the first place) this also explains why i've only gone for about 2 sessions of night study. HOW MARVELOUS. now fran, let's give you a time check on when prelims are... hmm... let's see... OH RIGHT. THEY ARE NEXT WEEK. what the... God said do your best and he will take care of the rest right but what happens when you dont complete the former. DIEEEEE. and i've just successfully wasted 5 mins blogging instead of (trying to) study. I can just see what's gonna happen when I get back my O level results. it's gonna be worse than what happened when i got back my chinese one. and, trust me, i don't think it gets much worse than that.

on a side note, people nowadays should learn to be nice to the people around them. Calling a person names for an invalid reason (not jokingly) should be frowned upon by society (i think it is already frowned upon, but insufficiently) PEOPLE WHO DO SUCH THINGS SHOULD BE SOCIAL OUTCASTS. anyway i'm just venting my anger, though it IS quite a serious matter right.

2009-08-23T10:18:00.003+08:00

THANKS GUYS FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES AND PRESENTSSSS! this birthday was rather awesome other than a very UNPLEASANT present from school - CHINESE Os RESULTS. DDD: ok i dont wanan talk about THAT now. WHAT A SPOILER. anyway i went for the EDYD facil's thingum yesterday... it was quite fun... and it was GREAT to see all my church friends again after such a long time. we went to Swensen's for LUNCH! :DDD (now i'm utterly brokeee) :S

2009-08-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

ENGLISH ORAL TODAY WAS OK I GUESSSSS RAWRRRRRRRR....

TWO DAYSSSSS! :DDDDDD

2009-08-16T23:37:00.003+08:00

I BOUGHT A NEW PAIR OF SHOES FOR SCHOOL YESTERDAY! :DDDD ANDAND TODAY I BOUGHT A NEW WATER BOTTLE AND SCHOOL BAGGGGG... BLISS! :DDDDD HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA... supersuper happyyyyy finally got the stuff i want!

english O's oral tomorrow! =X i hope i do fine.... gaaaahhhhhh DDD:

3DAYS! :DDDDD

2009-08-12T22:23:00.003+08:00

I REALLY HAVE NEGLECTED THIS BLOGGGGG :S

anyway! I WENT SHOPPING ON FRIDAY! i bought a new wallet, pencil case, tank top and earrings! :DDDD but i didn't manage to get the bag i wanteddddd DDDDD:

andandand i went for NDP on sundayyy! it was quite good BUT MY CAMERA RAN OUT OF BATTERY HALFWAYYYY DDD: i forgot to charge it :S butbut i got a few photos (which i have yet to upload due to my laziness) BUT ALL WILL BE ON FACEBOOK SOON! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ohoh i fell down during PE today... scraped both knees and now they look like a battleground... DDD: SO DAO MEI LUHHHH DDDDDDD:

7DAYS! :DDDD

2009-08-04T22:33:00.001+08:00

gosh i've really been neglecting my blogggg... i've been trying to study but i haven't really gotten much done... i feel like i just keep procrastinating over and over again.. anyway FIFTEEN DAYYYSSSS :DDDDDDD national day is this sunday... LONG WEEKENDDDD hahahahahahaha :DDDDD

2009-07-22T17:10:00.002+08:00

I have been trying to photoshop the baby fats off my face but it doesn't seem to be working! i somehow always end up looking super screwed up and disgusting. D: ANYONE WANNA HELP ME?

anyway chinese listening compre today was crap. stupid 4th passage. D:

2009-07-16T19:42:00.001+08:00

i really didn't expect this to happen... it was all so sudden, but i guess, deep down, we all knew this was going to happen and it was going to happen soon. yet it still seems so surreal. it's difficult seeing smiling faces around you but no one knows how i really feel. not even myself.

2009-07-13T21:14:00.002+08:00

oh gosh! i haven't updated for 10 days! GAAAAHHHHH! ok school's been..... the usual i guess. i didn't go today though.. didn't feel too good. i really think i should stop procrastinating and start hardcore mugging, but it's so hard! (as the word hard in hardcore suggests!) BLEAHHH! oh choir started on sunday.... we camwhored! (abit) and i need to upload the pics soon!

2009-07-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

school ended early today cause they cut assembly from 2 periods to 1 (just cause of H1N1). Anyway, went to the salvation army thrift store for fun but we didn't find anything... In the end, we ended up at KAP. Sad, but true. Funny stuff happened today but I don't think I shall blog about it here... :D met mag at KAP though. yepp. that's where i shall stop.

2009-07-02T19:41:00.002+08:00

chinese oral today was the worst. ever. for reasons including, but not limited to:

1) One teacher slept through my passage reading while the other was nodding off,

2) I was the only one they did that to,

3) The conversation was totally unexpected, it was about wether schools should let outsiders use school facillities.

WE PREPARED/WERE TOLD TO PREPARE CURRENT HOT TOPICS RIGHT. BULLSHIT.

2009-06-29T20:25:00.003+08:00

i am sick and tired of this.

sick and tired of always being the cause of problems,

sick and tired of being inferior always,

sick and tired of being looked down upon,

sick and tired of clearing up messes,

sick and tired of being the idiot and asshole in the end,

sick and tired of being me.

no one will ever get me again.

2009-06-25T13:29:00.003+08:00

no turning back.

i HATE these mind games.

2009-06-24T20:33:00.003+08:00

went to study at marine parade library to study again today... dont really feel like talking about it, got quite abit of work done... pics up on fb... bought a pretty locket yesterday and another one today...

2009-06-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

studied at mp library from 11am-330pm today! i studied by myself from 11am-230pm then nick and henri joined me. it was more productive when i was studying alone.. when they came, i didn't get much work done.. other than nick teaching me about CG. =X i bought a new tank top from cotton on today! :D it's greyyyy!

2009-06-20T20:56:00.002+08:00

wed to thurs on imun.. went to macs at kap for dinner on the first day. went to peter's house and ordered pizza in on the second day. they dunked peter into the pool and when philip went to help him up, he got pulled in XD went to sridhar's house on the third day and ordered in pizza... it was quite fun (the dinner-ing). i slept during GA of imun.. OH WELL.
went to sentosa today with RMUN 2009 GA2 people! hahahahaha oh goshh SUPER funn but i am SUPER BURNT nowwww. my shoulders are really red and painfulll... i hope it doesnt peel though.. but the BURNT LINES look grosss! i think i didn't apply enough sunblockk! anyway went to meet my classmates at east coast park in the late afternoon! hillary and jane tried teaching me to cycle and they NEARLY succeeded.. *NOTE THE WORD NEARLY* GAAAHHH ANYWAY I'M IN ALOT OF PAIN NOWWWWW D:

2009-06-15T12:11:00.002+08:00

choir concert was quite ok... i guess.... ah well, i can truly say this is the concert i'm most unprepared for so far XD yeps! peter brought stitch and sat him at the balcony so we could see him while we were performing.... hahahahahaha i was like trying to control my laughter! ohoh and marcus gave me a gebera! FTWW! he gave miin a lily... still dont know why she loves lilies... EXCESSIVE POLLEN LUH!!! ok anyway i shall stop crapping now... I AM WAITING FOR SRIDHAR TO UPLOAD PICSSSSSS )):

2009-06-13T16:41:00.002+08:00

i haven't blogged in supersuper long! anyway both my coms crashed so i was cut off from civillisation for like a week! bad, i know. oh well! RMUN came and went.. it was super funn but it really reminded me of all the awesome people from RMUN last year sigh... choir concert is tomorrow and alot of stuff's happened lately and i found a strand of white hair andand... i dont really feel like blogging now.. sadface. i hope IMUN will be fun...

2009-05-27T21:23:00.001+08:00

i think i'm getting sick.. :S ANYWAY, i have LOADS of homework to do and i've wasted about 3 hours online so far while procrastinating that i'll start on my homework in 5 mins... HAHAHAHAHA! oh well... FRAN YOU NEED TO BE HARDWORKING SO THAT YOU'LL DO WELL FOR CHINESE Os AND NOT HAVE TO TAKE IT AGAIN! JY!

2009-05-26T21:51:00.001+08:00

so much has happened these past few days and all i can say is "I NEED MY COOKIES AND CREAM ICE CREAM" seriously. it's THAT bad. )):

2009-05-23T19:21:00.001+08:00

sometimes, you just know when you dont belong and you should just follow your gut instincts to stop yourself from getting hurt. GET IT FRAN?

2009-05-23T00:15:00.002+08:00

IJ FIESTA WAS AWESOMEEEEEEE :D dinoland ROCKED ((: happyhappy. nice weather, hot, but nice! i'm like BURNT now.. look like a partial lobster =X was too busy to take photos though so my cam is still EMPTYYYY :S

2009-05-21T21:47:00.002+08:00

i should really get into the habit of posting consistently... anyway we had inter-class games day today and we managed to win netball! ((: good job 4/1! stayed back till like 7 today to help prepare for fiesta tomorrow! IJ FIESTA WILL BE AWESOME! MUSTMUSTMUSTMUST COMEEEEE :D i know it's kinda late to be "advertising", but oh well, better late than never right! mood's been looking up a little lately with loads of distractions to keep me occupied! that's GOOOOOD! ((:

2009-05-20T18:55:00.001+08:00

my parents can't stop nagging... soon the cycle's gonna start again... i really cannot take it anymore... this is the reason why i don't come home immediately after school. once i reach my breaking point, i don't know what i will do...

2009-05-17T00:22:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just wish i could erase some parts of my memories, my past... but strangely, i don't really regret much in the past. yes, no doubt i've done my share of countless stupid things in the past and i'm sure i'll make many of those mistakes in the future, i believe that these experiences can only help me grow more and more. there is no way these failings are going to pull me back in life. i'm determined not to allow that to happen. but yet, when i look around me and see how my friends are working so hard this year, i just get really discouraged and just feel like giving up. sometimes i just wish i could go back in time and redo the past 4 years, work harder, be a nerd. but i know that just isn't who i am... it's so... confusing.

2009-05-15T20:30:00.001+08:00

i haven't been consistently blogging... no motivation to actually. oh well. exams ended on thursday, i went out with hillary, yee wern and samantha to go watch wolverine today. it was kinda nice, kinda scary. :S met peter after that to give him his birthday present. the balloon is super cute! but his stalker is super scary... like seriously... i shall not mention that unpleasant text message thingy that happened. everyone around me somehow seems so happy, yet i'm so down... i really don't know why. maybe it's just the hormones... oh well...

2009-05-12T15:50:00.002+08:00

haven't posted in a while! presumably because of exams, but OH WELL! i've been totally addicted to like the "number twos" of fairytales like cinderella 2 (i watched 3 too, 3 is wayyy better!), little mermaid 2 & 3 (3 totally spoils the first movie if you watch it first, but it's SUPER NICE. I cried for the full last 20 mins!), beauty and the beast: enchanted christmas (this is like the supposedly christmas edition thingy). i wanted to watch anastasia 2 but i can't find it (or there's just no such thing) I LOVE FAIRYTALE ENDINGS. how i wish my life were just a fairytale too...

2009-05-05T20:39:00.001+08:00

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2009-05-02T14:27:00.002+08:00

i dont know why this is happening... i just want my rabbit back now.

over-dependence

2009-05-02T00:08:00.002+08:00

ok finally i have the mood to update! let's start with the funny things yesterday!

since it was like the last day of april, we pranked people! ohoh! i shall quote what happened when we pranked yu fan then wei loong.

FIRST PRANK:

Miin told yu fan that i fainted after choir and she was alone and she didnt know what to do! and then he freaked out XD and the she was like "she unconscious! ohoh she just regained consciousness and she's just laughing and laughing" XD then he was like "if she's saying something then it should be so bad" OMG I WAS LIKE REALLY LAUGHING LIKE CRAP IN THE BACKGROUND LUH! XD hahahahaha then finally i took the phone and told him it was a prank HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! then i asked him if i should prank wei loong and he was like "OK! but must tell me what happened!" so...

SECOND PRANK:

i called wei loong and told him yu fan fainted and we were at the hospital! he kept asking me to repeat luh! i think he is PARTIALLY DEAF! anyway when he finally got the message, he freaked out! XD he was like "which hospital are you at" and i was like "erm you should try calling his phone?" and he CALLED YU FAN! lol. when he found out it was a prank, he started shouting "I HATE YOU!" XD omg damn funny! and apparently between the time he put down the phone with me and called yu fan, he told his mum what happened too XD OH GOSH... yesterday was really super fun. XD

2009-05-01T00:09:00.001+08:00

so much things happened today... so much fun things but one thing at the end just ruined it. and now i just dont feel like talking.

2009-04-29T19:24:00.002+08:00

english MYEs today... 1 down, 8 more papers to go... went jogging with zac today... we jogged from tampines to simei then back to tampines again... I FEEL HEALTHIER... somehow.. oh well... i stayed home and studied the whole day today... well at least for the period of time before i went to meet zac... TOMORROW IS SS AND CHINESE... aarrrggghhh! and choir rehearsal.. GAAAH!

2009-04-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

went out with rabbit and miin today! we went SHOPPING for my dress! ((: we took like 2 hours to find the dress luh and miin ended up finding stuff she liked waaaay before me. she had to control herself from buying more stuff! hahahaha in the end i managed to buy my dress! it's pretty ((: it's coral pink! mum says it's too short BUT I DONT CARE. IT'S PRETTY. hmph. anyway after that we went to yoshi for dinner then rabbit had to go home. so me and miin went to esplanade library to look for some scores but in the end we couldnt find anything so we just went for choir... since we were early we went to get SOUP and SALAD! it's super nice luh! this time we made sure we TRIED THE DRESSING FIRST BEFORE DRENCHING OUR SALAD WITH IT. (bad experience from the last time =X) then when we wanted to go back to the backstage, we saw like the cats audience waiting outside the theatre to get in. so we had fun by excusing ourselves among them to get to the escalator down! (we purposely went to the escalator farther away from us! XD) everyone was looking at us like we were freaks cause we were like in our school uniform and laughing like crap! hahahaha it was reallyreally fun! then we were like laughing reallyreally hard and going super high (((: time to face reality now though... MYEs start tomorrow with the English paper )):

2009-04-27T19:59:00.002+08:00

had to go to school in the morning for SS rememdial. then went for breakfast with yun zhu. i was like starving during SS luh.. anyway we decided to go to macs to eat hotcakes! it was super funny and she kept saying that the way i ate the hotcakes looked grossed! but in the end she followed me cause it tasted better! XD it's like you use one whole thingy (i dont know what it's called) of butter that they give you (they only give you 2 so i had to go ask for one more) then you put lots and lots of syrup and swirl the butter all around till all of it melts on your hot cakes. then you cut and bon appetite! hahahahha! i spent the whole of sunday with my cousin (i skipped choir XD) we went to giant at PP and bought POP! hahahahhaha i miss POP. it's super nice when it's frozen. when i told my cousin i wanted to buy pop, freeze it and the drink it, he said "huh what? pork?!" HAHAHAHAHA! i told him if i wanted pork i'd just freeze HIM instead! anyway then we went to eat lunch at macs! after macs we decided to walk home and like when we around the bend from our place it started POURING. we were like stuck at the busstop! and since he was so impatient, we decided to cab home. His treat! haha i treated him POP so it was FAIRRR! hahahaha then we studied veryveryvery hard (sort of =P) and then we went to the playground after dinner to play on the swings. I MISS THE SWINGS! i love swings hahahahahhaha ok i'm going high just thinking about it. yesterday was fun. it was like a counsin's day out.. i miss it )):

2009-04-21T15:49:00.001+08:00

thanks everyone for the well wishes! i got sent home from school today... GAAAH! have been sleeping since 12 to now and though i think i'm better, i have a MASSIVE headache now... i think it's from sleeping too much... oh well! i uploaded pics on facebook! hahahahahaha! ((:

2009-04-20T15:59:00.003+08:00

after all the weeks of sleeping at 1 and waking up at 530, my body has started complaining. just when exams are around the corner, i am sick. seriously sick. flu, sorethroat and i feel the fever creeping up slowly... BUT I SHALL NOT GIVE IN.

2009-04-19T21:03:00.003+08:00

went to church then choir today! GAAAH tried shopping for a dress today but to no avail... )): oh well... there's like choir again tomorrow cause our concert's coming up. I WONT HAVE TIME TO STUDY FOR CHEM TEST... crapzoids. ohoh! i went to get my hair cut yesterday! got it relayered! ((: took a few pics today will put them on fb soon! MY AUNT GAVE ME A KINDER JOY YESTERDAY! it's yummy! and the toy is super cute but i still prefer the old one! KINDER SURPRISE! they should make both :S

2009-04-15T19:27:00.003+08:00

haven't updated in quite a while! went jogging with dianah today! i jogged like 5 rounds. ACCOMPLISHMENT! :D then after that we went to get FROLICK! (ironic right HAHAHAHA) then i bought a FRAN! serious. it's this pocky like thingy but the name is FRAN not pocky. and it looks super nice and awesome! but it's quite ex.. :S OH WELL! A FRAN IS WORTH ANYTHING!

2009-04-10T22:13:00.003+08:00

366th post! XD GOOD FRIDAY TODAY. Passion play was fab. Thanks everyone who has contributed in some way or another, without you guys it wouldn't have been so awesome. the play really brought out the passion of christ... there were some points of time when i actually got goosebumps while watching. hope it had the same effect on the audience too. anyway i'm super exhausted. waiting for easter!

2009-04-04T19:30:00.002+08:00

saw this decal on a car:

1 cross + 3 nails = 4gvn

it really says alot and i think it's really apt especially during this season... but yet does it over simplify the meaning of lent? oh well... it's good though

2009-04-01T22:44:00.003+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS' DAY!

ok today was really fun XD but it's quite sad cause it's like our last April Fools' in IJ. Remembering all those fun times in sec 1-3, not only on April Fools' but also all the other days is really sad. we changed class with 4/2 and it was really funny :D oh i pranked rabbit this morning! and i tried pranking nick but it didn't work and he ended up pranking me instead.. :S GAAAAHHH oh wellll....

2009-03-30T16:03:00.002+08:00

To that good friend from church:

We've been so close for the past few years, especially when we reached secondary school and when you first asked me to help you, i willingly agreed. i saw it as more time for us to spend together, more time to build this friendship but yet now, it seems that we've become too close. When i see a missed call on the phone from you, i call you back, dreading the sec you pick up, hoping, wishing that i'd get your voicemail instead. you've changed so much... or maybe it's just me. you asked us for help and yet you tell us you've settled everything. what's the point? you spend half the time changing your decisions because of what he thinks and you match his every wimp and fancy, nodding to his every suggestion like a dog, begging it's master for food. what happened to the girl i knew? the one who stuck to HER point of view. the one who didn't let a GUY govern her actions. you are attached and yet... i don't know what's happened and i really hope you read this... before tonight.

2009-03-27T23:41:00.003+08:00

COMMITTEE: THE WORLD AT LARGE

THE QUESTION OF: KILLING FRANCESCA UNDER THE PRETEXT OF PREPARING HER FOR THE 'O' LEVELS

SUBMITTED BY: THE PARENTS OF FRANCESCA

CO-SUBMITTED BY: THE REST OF HER FAMILY

The World at Large,

Keeping in mind the extent of the focus of Academic Excellence in Singapore,

Recognising the need for tuition, on top of the daily school hours to keep on par with the rest of the students across the country,

Understanding the fact that the school might not be able to offer the exact focus needed in specific subjects for Francesca to achieve even basic understand of it,

Realising that, without tuition and structured timetables for all hours of the day, it is impossible for Francesca to do well,

Denying Francesca of her basic human right of free will as, as parents, we have seen more of the world than her and know what's best,

1. Condemning all forms of entertainment, including, but not limited to:

a) Watching the television,

b) Using the computer, unless for academic related matter,

c) Going out, as long as Francesca even gets the slightest bit of enjoyment from it,

d) Eating, as it takes precious time away when it can be put to good use for doing for revision papers,

e) Sleeping, though it cannot be totally excluded, will be limited to the maximum of 5 minutes a day;

2. Implementing measures to torture Francesca under the pretext of helping her improve her academic results including, but not limited to:

a) Giving her at least 8 hours of tuition a week, but more if possible,

b) Issuing her a structured timetable to govern her every move an breath throughout the day, thus ensuring precious time is not in the least bit wasted on things which will not benefit her academically,

c) Scolding her everyday for her apparent idleness and wastage of time;

~and this is my life. i'm sure my parents would LOVE this. :S

2009-03-22T02:41:00.001+08:00

oh gosh.. i dont even know why i'm still up so late.. have to go to church tomorrow and all... school starts on MONDAY.. omg... AAARRRGGGHHH... that's super fast.. )): and i dont know how to do half of my holiday homework... BAAAAHHHH )))):

2009-03-20T12:56:00.002+08:00

haven't blogged since tuesday! omg! SCMUN has been fun.. no matter what happened... oh well.. really hope we'll get to work with the SJI debate team again.. they were seriously awesome. and IJ MUN-ers, we did wells too. ((:

passion play rehearsal today at 3! GAAAHHHH! oh i had chinese oral today. i think i flunked it. cause my chinese file is literally non-existent and she's gonna minus a hell lot of marks. also my throat is super sore from 3 days of MUN, so i'm really dying... i like totally fell into a deep sleep while waiting for my turn luh... oh well! i plan to take loads and loads and loads of pics for passion play ((: MUST REMEMBER TO BRING MY CAMERA TODAY! ((:

2009-03-17T16:05:00.002+08:00

omg.. i'm at like scmun now and i am B-O-R-E-D. they kidnapped me for the crisis and now i'm stuck doing nothing... )): sigh... at least this gives me time to blog. haven't had the time to blog in days.. haven't even been able to get enough sleep in DAYS... RAWWWRRRR and it's SUPPOSED TO BE THE HOLIDAYS! :s oh well...

2009-03-11T22:12:00.004+08:00

As i sit,

removing one button after another,

one badge and then the next,

tears flow ceaselessly.

I recall the good times,

the bad times.

The times we fought,

the times we had fun together.

The times we persevered on as a team,

the times we endured everything thrown at us.

I see my 4 years as a cadet pass before me and the tears just won't stop.

Are they tears of joy or tears of sadness...

The good memories of the 3 years,

I hold dear to me.

How did things change so much?

This might be the last time I remove these buttons,

prepping it for the wash so that i can wear it, maybe for the last time too.

How I wish I could turn back time

and return to when I first joined.

The time when everything was so simple.

The time when every training was a joy in the midst of hardships,

where we fought through difficulties as one...

Fought together as a unit.

2009-03-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

i changed my mind. i feel like blogging, but i just don't know what to blog about. i just need to do something, to occupy myself. i need something that will give me sastisfication... i need to focus.

And I recall the times

We spent

talking,

walking,

comforting.

2009-03-09T22:00:00.001+08:00

i really didn't do well for CAs... i didn't even do well for lit... SHIT. anyway i went to buy my mum's cake today.. it was really good... i guess that was technically the highlight for today... other than getting kicked out of a class i don't even take.. crazy huh? i know. really don't feel like blogging...

2009-03-08T01:20:00.002+08:00

had passion play rehearsal today, then went to my grandma's house to celebrate her birthday... i wanted to get the cake... but had no time.. oh well... at least it wasn't raining when i left the house. Didn't do well for any of my tests this term.. it's kinda depressing, considering that i studied and all... oh well, maybe i just didn't study enough... or maybe i'm just dumb. i'm like in the middle... can't be considered a bimbo (losing out on the pretty factor) and can't be considered smart (reason given) so it's like NEITHER HERE NOR THERE... )): I know i should totally be sleeping now, but i just feel like ranting a bit.

things in my life have changed. the whole feel of things is different. and though it hurts, i'm letting go of alot of things, clinging on tighter to others and sometimes, i wonder if i'm clinging on to too many things. oh well, after easter, i'm gonna be much free-er than i am now, so that's kinda good.... i really need to do well for MYs... like really super well.. i hope i can get like 10-12 for MYs... though i think it's impossible, cause that'd mean like at least a 2 for every subject... and now i'm barely passing... sigh... this is depressing...

2009-03-06T21:36:00.003+08:00

so many things have happened and i really can't tell anyone anymore. everyone has their own problems and yours is just insignificant. DEAL WITH IT FRAN.

2009-03-03T21:23:00.001+08:00

ok, i'm really super sick now. My fever hasn't gone down i didn't go for training today and my whole body's aching. The panadol isn't working... this is I-R-R-I-T-A-T-I-N-G. and i got caught in the rain today. which makes everything a whole lot worse. I CANNOR SKIP SCHOOLLLLL!! and i'm supposed to be watching Marley and Me with rabbit tomorrow... HOWWW )): I MUST GET WELL IMMEDIATELLYYYYY :S ARGH.

2009-03-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

i don't want to go back down that road again.

i don't want to start hurting again.

i've moved on...

but yet something just holds me there.

maybe it's just the feeling of lost friendship.

somehow, i think i've seen your true colours

and i'm not sure how this can be.

2009-03-02T00:31:00.002+08:00

ok i'm sick. i feel the flu, sorethroat and fever descending unto me. crapppp... maybe i'll get so sick that i wouldn't have to go to school on wednesday AND I CAN SKIP THAT @&#&^@ PHYSICS TEST. that's sounds great. now just have to think of a way to keep the bug at bay till wednesday... oooohh it RHYMES! ((:

2009-02-28T20:28:00.001+08:00

went for SCMUN presentation thingthing today... then went to mos with ashley in bishan then took a bus to church for passion play... OH PEOPLE WHO ARE INTERESTED IN PASSION PLAY, PLEASE COME FOR AUDITIONS! ((: it's so hard to get church people to join... oh well... anyway i've gotta go study physics nowwwww )):

2009-02-25T19:30:00.002+08:00

got caught in the rain today... anyway was quite irritated on the bus ride home cause of some inconsiderate people. but then i like looked out and saw the rainbow and my frustrations kind of melted away. reminds me why my blog url is what it is in the first place. the rainbow is like God's comfort to us after the storm. ((:

anyway, my lentern goals/sacrifice is to be more understanding, more tolerant and i'm going to try my best to help other people. sounds easy? i don't think so.. anyway i need to get my faith back on track...

2009-02-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

i must break

that daily routine

which reopens the wounds

time has healed

2009-02-23T17:53:00.002+08:00

school was ok today. start of the two weeks! i didn't sleep in class today, with the exception of geog, which i DO NOT TAKE ANYMORE! :D so anyway i've to go for some river monster programme tomorrow, though i think i'd rather be at home catching up on my sleep or preparing for my chem test which is on WEDNESDAY... but NOOOO.... i've to go for this.. oh well.. i can't really like pon it or anything. SHE-who-shall-not-be-named will KILL me. )): oh well.. i shall be distressed and depressed tomorrow from 3 to 6, picking up litter along singapore's smelly waterway.

2009-02-21T23:44:00.002+08:00

self-awareness camp was A-W-E-S-O-M-E ((: can't really talk about it here, but i think it really passed too fast. it was really great and i guess alot of the things i learnt was quite unexpected. shall upload pics to fb soon! anyway went for Starlight youth mass today... i think it was high enough luh.. like the songs were those type where it was like between mellow and high so it wasnt really great.. but still enjoyed it loads ((:

been losing weight alot lately and i really dont know why. it's not like haven't been eating or something, but i just seem to can't stop losing weight. i guess i know the reason why, but i can't do anything to change it. all i can do now is pray that this period time will be over soon.

2009-02-18T19:54:00.005+08:00

my blog is reasonably dead, so i think it's safe for me to start clearing some stuff out here. the thing is, alot of things have happened lately, things that were very unexpected and at that point of time, thought impossible by me. however, i guess i was wrong, cause it did happen. and i found out, or should i say heard, many other things, which though isn't very hard to believe now, i'd still like to clarify. all i'd like to know now is the truth cause only the truth can clear the cloud hanging over some of the events these past few weeks. all i want and need to know is the exact whole truth, yet i know, this can never be possible. due to human nature, people tend to hide thing, subconsciously or otherwise, in order to protect themselves. they would purposely leave out important details or try to twist things, such that they do not get themselves implicated in the consequences. thus as a result of human nature, i'm afraid that i will never be able to know the whole truth, yet, i hope to be able to at least know most of it and this, shall be my personal goal, which though important, WILL NOT take precedence over my studies.

there you go, my personal resolution. the truth is the sweetest reward anyone can get and knowing the truth is what i yearn for.

2009-02-15T11:26:00.002+08:00

i dont know why this happened. i just really cannot understand it. everything seems to be slipping from under me and i just can't get a grip on anything anymore.

2009-02-14T19:47:00.003+08:00

staying at my grandma's house! the good thing about it is that i dont have a specific curfew to get back! ((: anyway i woke up at 3.30 this morning to get ready to go to school (had to be there by 6.30am) for FDC. ended up reaching school at 6am. had to get up so early cause the first bus from my grandma's place to the interchange is at like 6? so i'd be late. had to walk to the interchange then!

2009-02-12T19:02:00.002+08:00

yesterday had total defence training. i can't believe i'm commanding tomorrow and saturday. SHIT. i dont want to. and the worst part is someone just pulled out YESTERDAY.. *ishallnotgetangryishallnotgetangry* AAAARRRGGGGHHH! WHATEVERRRRRRR!!!! so super EXASPERATED. i failed my EMATH test and didn't do well for my english either. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEE. it was ENGLISH. this is D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R-O-U-S )):

i hate it when we start fighting.. but this time it just went to the extreme. i really cant imagine why you even thought of breaking up.

DEAD RABBIT AND CRAZY BABY ((:

2009-02-10T20:57:00.001+08:00

i'm considering uploading pics here too, but they are alr uploaded on fb! ok i shan't waste my time.. anyway had training today and i shall leave it as that. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO BLOGGGGGG.... )):

2009-02-09T20:41:00.001+08:00

sexy new skin! ((: AT LAST. needed some COLOUR to encourage me to BLOG! XD

2009-02-09T20:18:00.002+08:00

TODAY'S A HAPPY-DEE-DAPPY DAY!!! :D for many reasons, thought mainly cause of one MAJOR one. ((: VDAY IS THIS SAT! fdc is this sat too.. AARRRGGHHH. i shall write letters to my whole squad if i have the time. it's called HOLLISTIC TRAINING! ((: (sexy, i KNOW) HAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-02-04T20:47:00.001+08:00

haven't updated in 4 days.. anyway thanks nick for helping me change the fonts! ((: had a meeting with the SJI debaters today for SCGS MUN. I think I totally wasted everyone's time.. )): oh well.... came home and slept cause i didn't manage to get much sleep the night before... getting sick... :S

2009-02-01T10:44:00.002+08:00

oh gosh.... had a family gathering yesterday at my aunt's place and i think i put on a hell lot of weight there. ate 4 plates of rice. i know, it's UNBELIEVABLE. >.< I MUST GO AND JOG WITH DIANAH TOMORROWWWWWW!! RAWWWRRRRR. hahahahaha. anyway we have a day off schol tomorrow due to our senior's good Os results, but i still have to go to school for training and all.. bleah.. oh crap.. i'm gonna be late for church now... AGAIN

2009-01-29T17:44:00.002+08:00

oh gosh. my neighbour is karaoke-ing AGAIN. she does this almost EVERY AFTERNOON. that's one of the reasons why i don't like to come home early. it wouldn't be so bad if she could erm.. sing in tune? or sing an ENGLISH song.. it's not that she isn't nice or anything (well i don't really know her.. but she looks nice!) but she should really find another past time cause it really gives me a ear ache. ALTERNATIVELY, she shouldn't turn on her stereo so loud such that the WHOLE BLOCK can hear her... it's NUTS luh... :S

2009-01-27T10:54:00.001+08:00

SICK.

2009-01-27T00:28:00.001+08:00

happy Chinese New Year everyone! don't really feel super celebratory though. wanted to wear my sari, but mum changed her mind at the last minute so i ended up wearing my yellow dress and my nice new black heels. i really don't feel like blogging now... some other day maybe.

2009-01-24T19:35:00.002+08:00

went out yesterday! it was super fun... though things didn't really go according to plan.... oh well... CNY is coming up! Reunion dinner is like tomorrow.... RAWWWRRR... and soon school hols will be over and back to the normal school routine..... )))):

2009-01-21T20:47:00.002+08:00

chem, bio and ss test coming up... dont know how i'm gonna survive cramping all of that into my brain. what's more, i dont plan to study over the cny hols. )): total defence and fd comp coming up... sure gonna lose my voice. :S

2009-01-20T19:13:00.002+08:00

oh gosh... one of the power source thingys for my lappy just died on me. so now i'm left with one. if this one dies on me too, I'LL be the next one who dies.... THIS CANNOT BE HAPPENING TO ME !!! ))): i cant believe it luh. i shall go see if anything can be done about it. most probably i think i'm gonna have to get a new one.. :S GAAAAHHHH

2009-01-19T21:51:00.002+08:00

i feel like starting a VOCABULARY OF BIG WORDs. i think it'd be so fun. like have a whole vocabulary of complicated, rarely used words which can stun a crowd (consisting of the general singaporean population). no, it is not an insult to singaporeans, it's just the plain truth. i'm so bored now... there's technically nothing to do online and i have no book to read... (well not counting those i've read over and over a dozen times...) i am OFFICIALLY bored. and not planning to study. =X

2009-01-19T21:46:00.002+08:00

She asked me to see her tomorrow... maybe she's gonna do the same thing... I don't know... In the end, I don't really have a say in anything, positions are just for show. She's the ultimate head. But yet, deep inside, i did nothing wrong, and even if i did, it was without malice or intention. It was out of self-defence. Unless... they complained about me. I'm almost completely sure of it, but yet, there's this glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe, they might still respect me as a senior and not fabricate huge tales out of nothing. As long as my conscience is clear, everything will be fine.

2009-01-16T22:37:00.003+08:00

i would never ever complain about my seniors... i would respect them and accept what they hand to me, no matter punishments or rewards. i would keep my unhappiness to myself and i would never tell a higher authority, as acceptance and perseverance no matter what the circumstance is what encompasses discipline and respect for my seniors. this is how i've been trained, this is what i expected when i took over, as this is the kind of respect and authority i gave to my seniors. but yet... all i see around me now is people trying to change traditions. people who complain when the going gets too tough for them, people who do not dare face those which they ever-willingly complain about. we are open to any problems you might have, especially if they concern us, backstabbing is not the right way. we respect you but yet, you do not even give us the least amount of respect. you see us in the corridor and you stare at the floor, as if gold were scattered there. you might not think what you did is considered backstabbing, but how would you feel if you were us. you just cut into our meeting, with no regard for things more important than your childish wimps. if your juniors in the future treat you like that, all i would do is laugh and say, god is truly great. if you try and see things from our point of view, you'd realise how much disrespect there was in that simple complaint. i see around me a bunch of people afraid once the road gets even a bit rocky. i see a bunch of people who are unwilling to pay the price for their mistakes and would rather choose to take the easy way out by complaining. all i see are a bunch of cowards.

2009-01-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

cry till the tears don't seem to matter anymore.